Life? Oy!

So cunfuddled and dizzy tonight that I'm about to drop dead. Ok, maybe not drop dead but I'm definately confuddled. LOL

I am in love with the sky

I am hopelessly in love with the sky.
Whether cloudy or bright, dark or light
She is beautiful.

She calls my name
"Come up here!
Come up through the atmosphere!
Hear the solar winds,
See where space begins.
See the stars and planets,
See where life began it's journey."

What wonders lie beyond the sky?
What will I see before I die?
Will I greet the clouds or walk on by?
Not noticing their beuaty is a crime.
The brilliance God made, that is the sky,
Should be noticed by every eye.

Grandparents, Guns, and Restaurants. OH MY! ;-)

So I had a really odd dream!

I was going to lunch with my Dad, Mum, Mum's dad and his wife at Bob Evans(which I can't stand by the way. Except for their dinner rolls. I'd kill for one now too. LOL). What was REALLY wier to boot???? MY GRANDMA WAS THERE! :-O MUM'S MUM!! THE ONE WHO CAN'T STAND TO BE IN THE SAME ROOM AS MY GRANDFATHER! yeah.....this was an odd dream.

We got to our table, I was pissed cause I don't really like Grandpa Joe and his wife(which is kinda true. I rarely saw them when I was a kid and they kinda creep me out a little..) and I had to go anyway, we sit down and in come Joe and Millie.

All the sudden my phone starts ringing and I can't get the ringer to silence so I just answer it cause I recognised the 208 area code. YUP! IT WAS MY SIS SARAH!! :D
Mom's not looking happy but I gave her pleading eyes anyway and she gave in cause she new it had been a long time since I got to talk to her.

My Gran isn't happy in the least and starts to give mum an earfull for letting me leave the table and talk on my phone(Which she would never do!). But none the less I walk into a section of the dinning room that is kinda seperate and start talking to Sarah.

In the course of me walking into this seperate dinning area it becomes my bedroom O.o And the picture I have hanging on my wall(that my gran painted :D ) was a picture on a PLASMA TV! o.O yeah.... well I look at it closer and turn the music coming from it down, and notice that it's not JUST a plasma screen TV, It's got a very close layer of glass(RIGHT above the screen like not even an inch above) and I can use it as a dry erase board! O.o

So I just go on talking about who knows what to Sis and then look over at the cashier's desk and there's a tall man arguing with the manager. The man was VERY angry for something about his food. I can't really make out what. Then he pulls out a gun! :-O I was really calm too....it was weird. I just calmly tell sis that "hey hun, I gotta go some freak just pulled a gun on the manager. and she all freaking out and going "WHAT?! WHAT DO YOU MEAN! ARE YOU OK?! KATIE..." and I hang up my phone. I continue like I'm sitting at the table under my Plasma Screne TV and unfold my napkin and place my silverware on the table, etc. and the dude doesn't even bother looking at me.
I go over to the open window(cause it's my room and I love to have my window open) and climb out. Next thing I know I'm back inside but that doesn't seem weird to the dream me. Doesn't even phase her! o.O

Some how the dude calmed down and left and I called Sarah back and she asked "WHAT THE HECK HAPPEND!" and I told her flat out "Some dude came in all pissed, took a gun out and pointed it at the manager, and then he left." lol

That was the end of my dream. My bladder woke me up. LOL If it's not Mum it's my bladder! I never finish a really good dream! Just look at my RDA dreams if you don't believe me! MUM WOKE ME UP! BOTH TIMES! :-( lol

Baby steps on the road to forgetting...or at least maybe healing a little more.

So I took down all but these few pictures of Kenzie's. It's a step in the right direction, I guess. It's sorta odd not seeing the other pics and thinking Melissa and Kenzie everytime I walk into my room or sit at th ecomputer in my room.

The dresses and hearts that Kenz drew when she saw me drawing dresses.

Kenz at Babler State Park. They have this wall that you stand looking at it from the right side and you see a picture in the fall and look from the left side and you see a spring/summer picture. This is obviously from the right. She LOVED to pose for pictures! LOL

Me and Dad November 11th, 2004. We were going to see the St. Louis Philharmonic Orchestra. Part of my birthday present that year :-) I was turning 16 two weeks later. I remember cause I had strep throat. LOL

THANK YOU ACTORS AND ACTRESSES OF MY FAVOURTI SCI-FI SHOWS!!

For the last 3 or so hours I have been listening to interviews on GateWorld.net and am so amazed at the REALNESS of the actors and actresses! I LOVE IT!

Amanda Tapping: I love how REAL she is. We see so many people who are SO FAKE these days and that drives me nuts!
But Listening to the interviews and watching vids all over of Amanda Tapping is so lovely!
She's so real and kind. And funny too! :D I love hearing her talk about how much she appreciates the fans and all. And she's SO thankful! She doesn't have the attitude of "I'M SO GREAT!" or "I DESERVE MORE THAN THIS" or anything! She's not, how Vala put it to Adria in Ark Of Truth, "A spoiled brat with a god complex" LOL She is genuinely a nice, caring, thankful woman and I'm so thrilled!
I'm so thrilled to have her in the roll of Helen Magnus!! Talk about polar opposites in the way they opperate! I am still amazed after a few months at Amanda's work in Sanctuary, especially REQUIEM!! OMG!! SOOOOOO WONDERFUL!!! It's so cool to see her doing a new character after so many years as Sam Carter, who I love dearly. Carter is such a cool person in many ways. She's an Astrophysicist, a soldier, and a woman.

One of my dreams as a young girl was to work on the Enterprise under command of Captain Jean-Luc Piccard, then it became, mainly because of Carter, being an Astrophysicist and doing amazing things in space and on earth that would change everything. Then I realised how much the career relied on math and decided against it. LOL Now I know my calling is Storm Chasing...math heavy, but none-the-less, my calling. :D
But she's such an inspiration to so many women and young girls out there! You CAN be the Soldier and/or brainy scientist and still be a beautiful, sexy, strong woman.

Claudia Black: I've not heard much from her but in what I have heard, she is lovely as well. She's a very private person so I/we really don't know really anything about her other than she's married, has kids and has been in my 2 FAVOURITE shows! LOL
She seems so sweet and also very thankful.

Chris Judge: HILARIOUS!!! And also a sweet and genuinely nice man. Playful, cute, and wonderful sense of humor! :D

Cliff Simon: WHAT A SWEET HEART! I just think he has such a big heart that it's overwhelming! As with all of the other actors I've mentioned. He really appreciates the fan support and I think he loves everything he does.
When he was talking about the PitBull rescuing that he supports he just shows his heart. I think that's so cool!

I think my favourite Sci-Fi actors all have that in common. They are REAL people who are very greatful to anyone who supports the work they do and care very much about what they do.
I'm pretty sure alot, if not all, of Sci-Fi actors are the same. Genuine, Real, Wonderful, Thankful people. They don't have the big egos that people in hollywood do, and it's WONDERFUL!! :D

So just a big thank you to all my Stargate, Farscape, and Sanctuary actors/actresses for all the things you do to keep us entertained and amazed. God Bless You All!!

What If Trees Could Talk?

So I was was babysitting last week and the little girl, Audry, was watching a DVRed Sesame Street and there was a commercial for....some company that had trees and flowers singing and making music and this just came to me. I had to put the baby down, grab the only paper I had, which happend to be my Weight Watchers points tracking book, and write this down.


What if trees could talk?
What could they tell us about what they've seen?

Would it be happy or sad?
Peace or war?

Would it be of men rejoycing?
Or of men crying for their families, wishing they could be with them on their long, hard journies?

Would they speak of life and happiness?
Or of famine, disaster, and destruction?

What if they could speak to us?
What could they tell us about our past?

Would they speak of only what they've lived through?
Or would they speak of inheirited knowledge?

Would that inheirited knowledge be from it's parent tree's DNA?
Or would it be from years of diging it's roots throught the soil, gathering knowledge from the decay of ancient of civilizations?

Don S. David 1946-2008

I had DVRed Wyvern on the Sci-Fi channel last weekend and figured I'd give it a shot. I thought it would be another cheesey, dorky b movie.
Well, I was wrong. I think my heart skipped a few beats when I saw a familiar, and very missed, name on the opening credits: DON S. DAVIS
I nearly cried right then and there. But I kept it together for the most part and continued watching.
Don's first real scene was him on the back deck of his character's house in....... BOXERS AND AN OPEN ROBE!!! ROFL!! I could have rolled on the floor if I wasn't still in shock over him being in the movie! LOL

(calling for his dog "LT")

Talk about something I NEVER thought we'd see General Hammond doing!! ROFL!!!!!

I really miss Don Davis. I never met him, I was looking forward to meeting him and getting an autograph at Dragon*Con last year when he was announced as a guest!

But Don Sinclair Davis died on the morning of June 29th, 2008 at the young age of 65 years young.
After battling with heart problems and diabetes for years, he died of a massive heart attack on the Sunday morning.
http://www2.canada.com/vancouversun/news/arts/story.html?id=d43bbc0f-1971-40e0-a584-c05aba7ee939

I was so shocked when I heard that afternoon. It didn't really sink in till several days after. And I cried hard that day.

I didn't know him at all, but he was a part of Stargate SG-1 the first 7 years, and being the huge fan I am, I was devastated to hear that one of my faourite actors, who played the commanding officer of Stargate Command, had died.

I've seen alot of his interviews, heard stories about him, and admired his artwork over the last few years.

Everyone says he was the perfect gentleman. A genuine southern boy from Aurora, Missouri "way up that mountain" as Teryl Rothery said he told everyone. LOL Here is a video of Teryl Rothery at Supanova 2008 in Brisbane, Australia talking about the filming of her as Heimdhall and RDA's comments and such. She tells Don's comment at 43 seconds.....




ROFL!!!! In Stargate Atlantis's Series finally, Enamy At The Gate, Sam told John about General Hammond's death. The character, like Don, died of a heart attack. The people who write, direct and produce were kind enough to change the name of the X-304 model ship The Pheonix to THE GENERAL HAMMOND as a lasting tribute in the Startgate world. I cried at this scene.... crying again now. LOL




Is it sad that I onlt cry for stargate? I've never cried at movies or any other TV show. But when favourite characters die in Stargate I cry like an idiot! LOL

Sorry if this was a bit odd sounding. I've had it on my mind alot lately and I've had a hard emotional week and it's always easier for me to throw stuff like this up here and get it out rather than keeping it in and crying LOL Lot of good this did for NOT crying LOL
*wipes tears from eyes*

God speed, Don Davis. I pray I get to meet you in heaven one day.